Secondly, a rant. I have been ill for weeks now: I just about managed to survive OsFest, but I've had a throat infection for 5+ weeks, meaning I've had to avoid singing - and considering the amount of writing we're doing, this is becoming heartbreaking. I can't put the work into writing that I need to, I can't practise, and I generally feel like ass. I am sick of it. At this stage I am willing to try anything, so if anyone has any miracle cures, let me know.
Finally, I have to mention Robin Williams. I was heartbroken to hear about his death - not just because he died but because he felt the need to kill himself. This man, so bright, so explosively energetic, and so remarkably emotive, was hurting enough that he felt the need to take his own life.
Having battled with depression for a very long time, and having found comfort and solace in the quotes of people like Robin, assuring me that suicide is a permanent solution to temporary problems, and that it is important to hold on. It is so sad to hear that Robin was troubled enough that his own philosophy couldn't convince him that life was worth continuing.
Having spoken to people about him, I've come to realise that there are so few people in the Western world who haven't had their lives touched by him: Aladdin, Dead Poets Society, Patch Adams, Mrs Doubtfire, Hook... . It's rare to meet a person who doesn't love a film he's been in and a character he's played, and yet, this incredible entertainer was so unhappy he took his own life.
I just need to say that, no matter how bad things seem, there are so many incredible things you are going to experience, you just need to hold on long enough. As corny as it sounds, you are precious. And people love you. And even in the (extremely unlikely) event that people don't love you, people will. And you will love others yourself. So hang in there.
You're not alone, and it's not the end of the world. Your life is going to be amazing.
Sorry for the ramble guys.